When We

What will happen when we die?
I don’t know
I don’t know either
Will it be like other deaths,
The same, indifferent, undistinguished
When extinguished?
Will we be whole when we awake
On the other side?
Will we still be we
Or simply one?
Will we remember our unity of separation
The apartness that kept us together
Through all these years?
Or just blend
And no longer be aware we were any different?

When we die we may see
What fractured us
Two of us floating in blank space
No ground beneath our feet
No clothes upon our backs
And in a small globe before us and between:
A memory
The event that gave shape to all our life
Revealed to us at last.
It may seem small then
On the other side
Maybe we will look at it
And ask each other:
We went through so much
For that?
When Life is so much bigger
And the Eternal so much greater
May be
We will wonder
Why that moment terrible
Was able to define us
For so long.

What I’m Up To

These are some of the things keeping me busy these days:

The Work in Progress

Every day I’m drawing more panels for my work in progress, seen sporadically in my “Teaser Fragments” posts. Here’s a couple more glimpses:

drawing of a woman seen from a slight distance as she assembles a floor lamp with a desk on one side of her and a window with blinds pulled up on the other side; a lampshade sits on the floor

Updates to Not a Cat Lady

I’m modifying multiple pages of Not a Cat Lady. Much of the work is mere tweaking and still more polishing, but I’ve also been fixing a number of panels that made me cringe every time I saw them. 

While doing that I’m revising the posts for the entire novella, doing away with the gallery interface and presenting the art pages directly. It’s not something I can do all at once, so the Not a Cat Lady posts will transition gradually.

a drawing of a close-up profile view of a woman, eyes closed, leaning her head back against a tiled wall with steam effects around her
a drawing of a woman in low light seen directly from above as she lies in bed with her eyes wide open; one arm is bent with a hand beside her pillow, and the other arm stretches along her side with the hand on top of the sheet

Movies and TV Shows

My self-indulgent reviews of shows I watch have dragged to a halt because right now I’m working my way through the original Thundercats series (130 episodes), and I can’t resist writing an in-depth commentary on nearly every episode. I’m struggling to figure out how much of that content to post here. I don’t mean for this to become a Thundercats fan site, and I know I’m going off the deep end analyzing it all.

I focus a lot on the “proper” order in which to watch the episodes—neither broadcast order nor production order fully works for season one, even accounting for how multi-part stories were divided—so that brings up the question of how to arrange whatever entries I do post.

At this point I’m still in season two, with about fifty episodes to go, although I might get started posting something even before I’ve finished rewatching everything.

detail of a photo of the inner cover of the Thundercats complete series DVD set, focused on the circular Thundercats symbol

You Raised Me Up

When I was young, and my soul so cheerful
No troubles yet, and my heart burden-free
I wasn’t still and danced there in reliance
That you would come and laugh awhile with me.

In my life, you spared me cold and hunger
Grandparents said that you and they loved me
But when need came, and I began to tumble
You turned away and held back silently.

You raised me up
So I could roll down mountains
You raised me up
To drop in storming seas
I am safe
	when I stay off your shoulders
You raised me up
And then let go of me.